A little about me:
Hello. My name is Ceciley. I'm 19 and a college student planning on entering the nursing field. I'm engaged to a great guy named Brandon and we've been living together for a year now.
: We plan on getting married after we graduate from college and starting a family soon after. I've got a rough past (but who doesnt) and it's sorta led me here.
How I got introduced to Wicca:
I was born and raised as a Christian. I started attending the baptist church when i was under a year old. once i moved to georgia at the age of 5, we stopped going to church up until i was in 8th grade. When i was in 7th grade I started dating a guy named Jernigan. He was what I guess I could call my first "real" boyfriend and my mother didnt approve. I attended church regularly by 8th grade and jernigan and i were still together but by the start of my freshman year, our youth group began to talk about the occult and watch movies on satanic worship. one of the religions mentioned in the study/video was Wicca. I'd never heard of Wicca before then but the video described it as a group of people who practiced "white magick". then the video/study said that "ALL MAGICK IS BLACK MAGICK! ANY FORM OF MAGICK IS EVIL AND SATANIC WORSHIP!" (and here i was a harry potter fan and being condemed for it!). well i took what i had learned (being the obediant christian girl i was) and went on with it (although i did continue to read harry potter. lol. my way of looking at it was there was no way reading a children's book for entertainment could condem me to eternal damnation).
well sure enough soon after this study (within a few months) Jernigan came out of the broom closet as i've heard it called and announced he was wiccan. My road with Jerni had already become rocky by this point because of certain rumors that were going around school being spread by my best friend and this was the "last straw". I threw away a great relationship because I thought if i stayed with him he'd condem me to hell too
! for quite a while i was absolutely miserable. i've had 3 bad relationships since jernigan (who also during this time announced his homosexuality: also condemed) and then i moved to florida. I started attending a new church but the minister contradicted a lot of the things that i'd been taught over the years so my attendance slacked. When he found out I'd been intimate with my long-term boyfriend (now fiance), i was automatically condemed to hell and told not to come back to church until i repented for my "sin". Since I loved Brandon and wanted to spend the rest of my life with him i didnt feel that I had sinned so I havent gone back since.
For a while now my faith has been slipping farther and farther from the christian's idea of god. I've kind of lost my way with religion in general which is something i've never had happen before. even when i didnt go to church for so long, i still prayed nightly and read my bible. lately I've felt lost and i've realized that I need something to believe in and i'm trying to find out what it is thats missing in my life. I'm researching a little of everything at the moment but Wicca has always held a bit of an interest when it was first introduced to me in the "occult" study. after a bit of research i've learned that the basic beliefs of a Wiccan (God and Goddess, the energy from the earth, the idea of threefold law, and the Wiccan Rede) all seem to sit well with me.
so thats my story. I'm really here to look more into Wicca and see if it's what's right for me. I'm looking more for spiritual enlightenment/a spiritual path than to cast spells or anything like that. (although the idea of protection and etc would be comforting)
I'm also looking to make some wiccan friends and some who will be willing to walk with me on my journey. if anyone would like to talk with me, please PM me. Thank you!
Ceciley
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