Very OT - new job stress

#@%$^&****!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've taken this new position with an insurance company. I've never done this job before, so I, (and 14 other new employees who are in the same boat as I), am sitting in a training class right now.

Of course, since we are parked all day, every day in training, we are not out there preforming our jobs. This means that the company (who is, most naturally, paying us our standard wages) is 'loosing' money on us.

Now the course is, in reality, 5 months long. But that's too long for the company to wait for us to get out there and do our jobs. So, they've smashed the course into 2 months. It's a very, very information/detail intensive course.

I am not computer savy. I get by, if you know what I mean. And as luck would have it, this job requires the extensive use of. . . yea, you guessed it. . . . . .computers. Their software is user unfriendly, and very inconsistent. Just because F3 means 'back' in one screen, doesn't mean it functions as a back button in another screen. It seems that a pile of different people who never talked to one another created this @$$$#### system.

To add on top of it, we can not come in on our own free time and practice and study. Since we are employees and are not students, the company is all worried about over-time issues.

My first evalutation is tomorrow. I see the big picture, but am drowning in the mountain of details that we are expected to know. I am not even sure if I want to pass this course or fail.

If I pass, I have 4 more weeks of this insanity. If I fail, I won't be under this pressure any more.

But I hate like hell to quit - especially now that I've put this work into this job. And I just hate to quit in general.

So, do my best is what I'll do. Yea, I'll grumble and fuss about it and complain as I go, but something inside of me just won't let me walk away from the challenge.

So wish me good luck and light a candle, if you will be so kind to do so.

And hopefully I'll pass.

And oh, did I tell you? Passing score is 85 %. Nothing is easy. . . . .sigh. . . .